The Harvest is Promised

In a season full of flooding, snowing, and ice storms (oh my!), sicknesses, fighting with insurance, losing power, remote learning, rebuilding, relocating, grieving, mothering two kiddos whose worlds were turned upside down, walking through trauma with flood victims while still processing our own, and working full time… I find myself a bit weary.

And by “a bit weary,” I mean the bone-tired, falling-asleep-while-standing kind of weary.

Some days, I’m ready to throw in the towel. Give up the good fight. Raise the white flag. Call it quits and go hibernate until summer finally arrives.

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Battling in Prayer With Jesus

“Tarry with Me.”

The Lord gave me that phrase during my prayer time two years ago, and I had to go look it up because I wasn’t used to Him talking to me in KJV (lol).

I found it in Matthew, when Jesus was praying in the garden before the crucifixion, and He asked the disciples: Tarry with me.

Stay with me. Be in companionship with me and battle with me in prayer.

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The Joy of Self-Despair

What’s one thing that dramatically changed your walk with Jesus?

For me, it was learning to distinguish between true despair and self-despair. As many of you know, I grew up ensnared in addiction. Trying to live a Christian life looked a lot like this:

  • Sin.
  • Try to stop.
  • Fail.
  • Despair.

I spent over a decade stuck in that cycle, despairing of ever living a life for Jesus or breaking my addiction. I was sure that anything good the Lord had planned for my life had been ruined.

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Fixing My Thoughts on Him

I was out for a walk recently, listening to a sermon, when the following passage caught my attention:

“You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!” —Psalms 139:16-18

I was struck by the phrase, “How precious are your thoughts about me.” For some reason, I had never given much weight to the fact that God actually thinks about me. And not only that He thinks about me, but that His good thoughts for me outnumber the grains of sand.

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