Month: May 2024

The Joy of Self-Despair

by Jordan, posted in Christian Living

What’s one thing that dramatically changed your walk with Jesus?

For me, it was learning to distinguish between true despair and self-despair. As many of you know, I grew up ensnared in addiction. Trying to live a Christian life looked a lot like this:

  • Sin.
  • Try to stop.
  • Fail.
  • Despair.

I spent over a decade stuck in that cycle, despairing of ever living a life for Jesus or breaking my addiction. I was sure that anything good the Lord had planned for my life had been ruined.

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Your Obedience, For Their Breakthrough

by Jordan, posted in Uncategorized

For the past few years, every time my husband has fasted with the Lord for an extended period, I have ended up having dreams and visions. In fact, it’s happened so frequently that it’s turned into a running joke between us about how being one flesh means that I get to reap the benefits of his obedience.

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Fixing My Thoughts on Him

by Jordan, posted in Christian Living

I was out for a walk recently, listening to a sermon, when the following passage caught my attention:

“You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!” —Psalms 139:16-18

I was struck by the phrase, “How precious are your thoughts about me.” For some reason, I had never given much weight to the fact that God actually thinks about me. And not only that He thinks about me, but that His good thoughts for me outnumber the grains of sand.

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